All the colours of the rainbow

It’s only been a couple of weeks of volunteering in the nursing home and already a new understanding of aged people has occurred.  When the gradual loss of self comes with Alzheimers, as a daughter it’s difficult to determine where the healthy, fully functioning person became just that little bit more eroded, a little more dependent, a little less individual.  The greyness takes over and you don’t even notice except in the need to be closer, more available and then to a point where it’s impossible to move away and their life takes over your life and you both get lost.

I think back to my days in child protection when the ability to just live life was often shadowed by “a bad case”, my next court appearance, the report that had to be written and more tragically the perception that ‘out there’ were so many victims and equally so many perpetrators.  The role becomes the reality and along with it the politics, the attitudes and a lessening ability to just be self.   So it is with Alzheimers.

I’ve done the fire walk, a speeded up version of manual handling and this week I’m learning how to wash my hands.  All valuable lessons!  I’ve called bingo, hoy, refereed bowling conflicts, mistakenly bestowed a birthday on the undeserving and pushed numerous wheelchairs into solid objects. I’ve listened to big hearted performers sing war songs with voices that are probably best suited to the shower but appreciated nonetheless.

Initially a little nervous of “one on one” activities I quickly discovered this can prove to be my highlight of the day.  The person and their story is almost always reflected in numerous photographs, cards, books, a mobile phone or the wedding photos pictured in a handmade quilt.  The women who have the ability to be social and joke around are fun to be with but the one’s who are now relatively isolated by disability or pain almost without exception will talk about her family. She will tell me all about the son or daughter who visits every week, the one who “can’t make it as much because she is so busy” and the friends who still occasionally drop by to catch up.  The lucky ones go out for coffee or lunch and the lonely ones sleep.  Some will tell me how grateful they are to have a failing body instead of a failing mind but some will say they are still not sure.

Back in the locked ward where Dorey and the Off-sider talk about what day it is, why time goes so slowly and where the latest bag of licorice allsorts came from  conversations don’t happen because the ability is gone.  What does happen is the daily appearance of wives and husbands who come to feed their partner, sit and hold their hand for a while and talk to each other about how life used to be.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Brownie points

Today I start my newest adventure.

I’ve been visiting Dorey at the nursing home daily for the past five months, spending countless hours watching her sort through her purse looking for the last fake $50 note issued on “pension day” each Thursday.  Occasionally I get the chance to take a couple out to recycle but that in itself is a major task.  She hangs on to that bag like it was her life buoy on a sinking ship.  The Off-sider always says she would be a first class bag tester in China.  The visits are coloured by the antics of others, interaction with staff and always doing that quick survey in the morning to see if anyone is missing.

Today I broaden my horizons to the other “communities” as a volunteer.  The paperwork submitted, the police check done and something resembling  fire safety training completed. Already for the big interview, signing of documents, discussion about  confidentiality, personal safety and …….   Well none of that happened.  Today I jump the “us and them” fence and get to play numerous games of bingo, hoy (whatever that is), go for walks around the block and maybe get to have have coffee with that person I have been attempting to (unsuccessfully) chat up – see, there are benefits to being one of “us”.

Just earning Brownie points for my room with a view.